I am UP! Bright and early to hand in my project for 9am. The day is finally here. :D

Let's see if I can blog about my night. My really late night! I slept at 3 ish and woke up at 7.40. Whoop. TIRED!!

Anyways, after a long chat, I only started to realise yet again that I put myself in the same situations all the time, whether in minor or major decision making. Let's just say I am terrible at it. I rather that someone make THE decision for me than I making the decision myself. Sometimes not knowing what is best for myself hence I let other peoples advice and thoughts affect me in great amounts. I must admit that I was impatient and should have waited on God and trusted him more. I should not have prayed for a decision to be made by him but to pray for help for ME to make my OWN decision. I have learnt a lot.

Well last night I had but I am scared I will make the same mistakes again. This offer from Singapore may be seen as a sign to others. I would agree, but ONLY if I had really really wanted the position. But the fact was I actually did not. I was rushing myself and getting desperate to know what God has in store for me and so that turns out in a rushed and hasty decision in applying to any known sources of internships, to see if what I could get my hands on. I got caught up in the midst of excitement.

I admit too that I have tested God and that was wrong of me. I hope he will still sees my longing in wanting to trust in him, I just need help with being patient. I feel so low just thinking I should have known. Indeed God has his purpose, time and way to teach me a lesson and to reveal to me not only the answer I needed but everything else that I needed to learn. He speaks through people and I can only be thankful for that. Sometimes the truth hurts.

OH nooo..late! but there you go..My prayers and answers have truly been revealed and noted down on this very blog. I am glad I wrote it all down.

I am staying for 3rd year and you can't get rid of me. :D