SO near yet so far!! I cannot actually believe I have managed to write so much for my dissertation. It is ridiculous! The fear of not having enough to write about has turned around. Now the trouble is all down to editing it. I might have waffled too much too. I just hope it turns out fine and I have got my point across. EEk.

On the other hand, final year project is going ridiculously slow and I am not looking forward to the mountain of work I have to conquer from now till May. But I guess I have to keep reminding myself of the feeling of accomplishment at the end of the day. No one can help me through this except God. COME ON!! I cannot wait to finish now. For all those people who are not yet in their final year, this is how it feels. Although the thought of job hunting and work seems "oh-so-not-exciting", I think its time to leave the uni phase of life and embrace new challenges.

On the subject of challenges, I gave one for myself this year, and to remind you guys again, it was to gym regularly. Lo and behold! I think I am succeeding in that area. What has become of me? I never used to be that girl who liked exercising or sports for that matter. I guess I am trying to make up for lost opportunities. I am glad I had the opportunity to rock climb yesterday. It was pretty awesome, tiring but fun. Another thing that I have been doing lately, is reading. I actually do like the sound of reading now. Again what happened to that girl who hated reading and would only touch a book once in a year?

This just shows that you can do anything if you really want to. Who knows what i'll embark on next. Those were just baby steps. haha!

Climb a mountain?

(oh forgot that was my "project")

Hmm it seems that everyday goes by so quickly now, especially when there is no inspiration. I feel like I know what I am going to do but yet cannot seem to express it. My topic is on the complexity of emotions, and its ironic cause I should be learning more about it and getting more understanding about it but it turns out the other way round. In fact, how I am feeling about this project is just like what emotion is. You know what emotion is but yet you are not able to express your understanding. Bugs me. Lord please give me the thunder lighting bolt of inspiration. Oh but it seemed like you did give me a mini one this morning, right before class. Please do it again :D

I guess even though I am kind of struggling with work and all, I have this inner peace that I can do it. If God has pulled me through every other thing in my life and projects that have passed, why not this right? Obviously, I have to play my part.

Weeks get tougher and tougher, deadlines draw nearer and nearer. But its in this times that you draw closer and closer to God and no doubt the friends and the love ones you have. I asked this in cell earlier, If you were to see God today, what would you thank him for and give glory to him for? I would thank him for the love he has showed me and through the people around me. Friends are truly important and so is my loved one. :P It still amazes me everytime I think about it. I am truly blessed.

So blessed, I get to go London tomorrow!! woot woot. It should be a good day of spending quality time with friends. I shall force myself to sleep early tonight, as it is going to be a long day tomorrow.

Oh forgot to mention about my new year's resolution. Well obviously its none other than making an effort to go to the gym 3 times a week. So far so good till this MORNING!!! I got lazy and had a late night and had a talk later which meant I couldn't make up for it. I hope I don't enter the lazy mode again :/

CNY is round the corner yet again. I really miss the togetherness of a family during this time. I guess my friends in leeds could be considered family :D Its a potluck night in cell tonight and I know there will be lots of good food. I am actually writing this post just as I am waiting for my flatmate to cook her dish.

I will always remember Chinese New year as a time to wear everything new. When I was younger, we were never allowed to wear anything new that we have bought till the very day of CNY itself. The night before, my mom would get me to fill ang baos with the those newly drawn out cash from the bank. Ahh I love the smell of them. She will then pass us 3 daughters our gold bracelets to wear. If I can remember, mine had a horse or a heart. Kinda wish I had it with me now. oh! and not to forget those crisp new pyjamas bought from the pasam malam. lol! Its nice to think about the good old days. Obviously, it gets more exciting the next day. Visitations, collecting ang baos, eating loads of snacks. But I will tell you what I dislike the most. It's having to greet EVERY SINGLE person with a chinese greeting haha. Well thats the hard work you have to get through to get your money. lol

Going back to the topic of snacks, please will someone give me bak kua! -_-'

or even better...YEE SANG!!!! -_-"

SO much for a CHRISTMAS BREAK HUH.

Even though it has not started snowing yet, I already feel snowed under. I guess I got to just take things as they come and do my best! Every little thing at a time.

Just sitting in bed now, was about to sleep but thought to myself that I have not been blogger for a really long time. Well I suppose, if i did, it will be filled with lots and lots of posts about work. I really do love my work but sometimes it just really takes up all my brain power. So much so Im ill! NOOO. But I think after a long night sleep, it would do me just fine. :D

I cannot believe its already Dec. Where have the year gone? Sometimes I even forget what year we are in, thats how fast time is flying by. I do not remember it being this fast when I was younger. What would it be like in 10 years time? Eek. Speaking of time, quite a lot of it was dedicated to secret santa shopping and for other presents. Wow! Present shopping is a skill I'm telling you. It's not even about whether you know the person well enough. You have to think if that person will use it, like it, need it, if its too expensive, if its enough? You get the gist. But I think I have finally got there. :D I do love giving presents and wrapping them, if I have enough money and more time that is.

It's LCCC's student christmas celebration tomorrow, the first ever one of the month! Hopefully people will be in full festive moods to not notice the ever so early celebration, then again I thought to myself, we do baby showers right? So this is kind of the same for Jesus? Haha.

I shall make it a point to blog more often, perhaps about more interesting insights of mine.

Oh forgot to mention since the last 3 posts. Im pretty much settled into my ''home''. Its so neat and I'm loving it. I also found out that I might have just a tiny weeny bit of OCD. HAha.

I think a spam from blogger in my inbox today has prompted me to do an update on my life.

Today has been one of the most productive days of my life. Well yea.. I got my sheets washed and changed, wrote a good chunk of a draft of my lit review, messed around with my layouts for my magazine and many other things. I love it when I have such a day and to just sit in my bed to watch a couple of shows at the end of the night, is just bliss. Life has been pretty stagnant, lets just say nothing really exciting happens anymore. I find myself sitting in front of my computer pretty much the entire day. It kinda almost feels disgusting. Need to do something! Anything! I just watched the Bachelor and the dates they go on are amazing :D I can only dream of going on such a date like that. Carribean sea, cocktails, hot tubs and massages and a dinner for 2 to finish of the night. lol. Its late, can I be excused for dreaming?