Blogging can sometimes be a place for one to spill and just a place where memories can be embedded and look back again. Today I shall write a post about my struggle in life at the moment and will eventually look back one day or soon enough to see how God has answered my prayers and how he has planned my life for me.

I have been feeling so doubtful for plans of my life recently because of all these pressure I put myself into from uni work and the ''thought'' of internships, jobs and money. I know I shouldn't worry at all because the lord will always be there for me and show me the path set for me but I can't help being anxious and worried too. I am just a worrier and I have been praying to God if he could just take this anxious worrier away and bring back the happy- go-lucky girl.

I might have wanted answers from God too fast and maybe he is just teaching me to be patient or maybe just purely because it isn't the right time to answer me yet. I really don't know.

I just read Chew Fatt's blog post and this is what he quoted from the bible:

"Do not conform yourselves to the standards of this world, but let God transform you inwardly by a complete change of your mind. Then you will be able to know the will of God".

I think I need to remind myself constantly that I SHOULDN'T conform myself to the standards of this world. To the standards of the design world. To the standards of the working world or anything else but to know and walk in the way of the will of God. This decision on whether I should take a year out is prove challenging. I have thoughts that conflict each other. I have hints from both sides. I have no solid answers and I don't really know what to do as I can't really sit and just wait around too. Lord show me the way.

Is it wrong to ask the Lord to specifically show me his answers this weekend?